She just... up and left. I guess I can't say I blame her. She's enduring enough in her life, she doesn't need me, or the burdens I undoubtedly place upon her shoulders. I do not believe you'll be hearing about Sara from this point on. It's all for the best. She doesn't deserve to be dragged down into this situation, especially if I brought this all on myself.
I'm gonna miss her. That much is for sure. Quite some time was devoted for her only for it all to crumble to dust. I really don't want to go into too many details. Even now I don't desire to type up another blog. I'm exhausted, physically and mentally. I haven't been to my home, I haven't been anywhere near that area.
I need to find a new place to go. I'm typing this all up on my laptop through a shitty unsecured network. If I type a few words it will lag, and take a couple moments to finally catch up to what I've actually written. I'd head back to the library and purchase more time there on a more stable network, but I'm slowly running out of money.
I'll need to get back to my life eventually. With any luck, maybe this has all blown over. I don't know. I just don't know anymore.
I'm sorry for failing you Sara. I'm sorry I wasn't everything you wanted. Forgive me.
- The Acquitted
I'm sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteI'm relieved you posted though. I was starting to worry.
Be safe. Be aware. Don't take any unnecessary risks.
I am sorry for your loss as well.
ReplyDeleteSeems to me more like she failed you though.
I hope this situation gets better for you and that you feel safe enough to go back to your home.
I send my apologies in your time of grieving. This is ultimately for the best in the future, but it does not make it alright right now. You did not fail her, she walked out on you, dear. Certain times that can be ones fault, but in this case, it was not yours. That was her only way to deal with it.
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone. Adapt to the change.
Stay safe.