Tuesday, March 29, 2011

This was unexpected

     Well, I went to Gordon's house like I said I was going to. Had a pretty fun time, we got some Borderlands Lan in. Managed to level up and play some of the DLC that I had finally gotten around to downloading. It was a pretty fun time up until I was ready to crash.

     Honestly I was feeling pretty tired towards the end of our Borderlands Lan session and fell asleep at about ten ish. I remember having a pretty bad dream about a field that was on fire and being consumed by the flames. It was unsettling but that wasn't exactly the worst part of my night.

     I know I took my medicine. I'm absolutely sure I did. Unfortunately when Gordon decided he was going to prank me after I had fallen asleep, I was nowhere to be seen. He found me upstairs, sitting outside on one of his white chairs, playing with a knife. I don't remember getting up, I'm fairly certain I was still dreaming at the time, which disturbs me.

     Call it paranoia as a result of exhaustion, but I could've swore I was being watched the rest of the night. I'm starting to think this journey into Astral Projection and so forth is really going to bite me in the ass but I don't really wanna stop. I'm so fascinated by it all and I know I'll find a mental balance in time.

     Might start hanging out with Gordon a little more in the coming days, that's the plan at least. With any luck I'll actually be able to rest at his place and perhaps practice some Astral Projection there. Who knows.

     Take care everyone!

- The Acquitted

Monday, March 28, 2011

Quick Update

     So just a random update. It seems my attempts at Astral Projection have proven to be a bit more successful. I'm fairly certain I've managed to have a more vivid out of body experience than I did before. It lasted a little longer, but I found myself in a very weird black void again. This experience seemed to last longer, but I wasn't really sure where to go from there. Shortly after it seemed I was drawn back to my house, aimlessly wandering around and watching my body sleep. If I were to estimate a time, I'd say I was out of my body for about fifteen minutes before I was pulled right back in.

    When I did get drawn back in however, I woke up immediately and found it kind of hard to sleep after that. Had a strange feeling of anxiety kinda flooding over my mind and body. It was just really hard to relax. I'm not sure if this is normal after an out of body experience, but I would assume that there's not much to worry about.

    After falling back asleep I remember having a strange dream again. Seemed I was being followed in this dream. Not entirely sure by what, but I distinctly remember a great feeling of fear taking hold of me. I woke up shortly after and stayed awake for the duration of the night. I would imagine that through Astral Projection, one's mind has to shift from a state of what it would normally perceive, and the perception of an Astral Plane. I'm hoping that's what triggered my strange nightmare.

    Anyway. Going to head over to my buddy Gordon's house tonight and probably play some Borderlands Lan. Not sure I'm going to apply any Astral Projection techniques to my slumber, but we'll see how things go. I might bring my camera, just for the hell of it. I know Gordon has been dying to play around with it.

    Take care all, I'll update tomorrow, possibly with a video!

- The Acquitted

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Here goes nothing

     So I'm gonna try some more attempts at Astral Projection. I haven't been delving into Lucid Dreaming much as it's becoming more a side journey for me. I feel Astral Projection really will lead me in a profound direction, call it a hunch, but I'm hoping it will be very enlightening. I'm gonna apply some of the other methods Sara discussed with me that we didn't all get on video, and see where it leads me.

     No more real strange dreams. The last dream I had was actually relatively amusing albeit far from lucid. I was at some sorta bar with my friends, whom are under the age of 21. I don't look like I'm 21, so the waiter who was taking our order for food questioned my appearance and ID when I asked for beer as well. I remember chewing him out in a very thorough manner about how I don't appreciate his behavior and asking to speak to a manager.

     Somewhere around there I managed to score a round of Beer on the house for my friends and I. The ladies we were with Sara and her friend, were underage. So my buddy Gordon and I took their beers and proceeded to down them. The reason Gordon didn't get questioned is cause he (unlike me), can grow a full beard and definitely looks the part. I guess they figured if I looked like I was 16, but was drinking age, then the guy next to me who looks 23 but is actually 19, must also be legal.

     Kinda funny. I needed a funny dream to relieve some of my stress. Though it really made me want to drink tonight and I'm fresh outta cash. Gotta wait to get paid here soon. More videos will be on the way guys!

     Have a wonderful day

- The Acquitted

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Brushing the dust off

     Wow. I'm super sorry that I haven't made a new blog recently. I've been getting in over my head with a lotta stuff right now. Some issues with friends, family, times are stressful at the moment and I'm just not making enough money to support those I care about as well as myself. As a result I've been incredibly exhausted lately, mainly due to my lack of sleep. But here's a brief update or two.

     Might as well get this one out of the way. I posted a video up on YouTube. It's mainly just a, "Hey, I said I was gonna do this shit and I finally got it done" video. Nothing all that interesting. For that I apologize. I know, I know. I really need to get the ball rolling. But it's been crazy lately. Here is the start of my Vlog.

     As I've stated before, I've been finding it difficult to sleep. I attribute this to the overwhelming stress that generally comes towards the end of the month. Come next month I'll be more on top of things and probably have another slow down as I try to figure things out. This is just how it's been for awhile now, I hope you guys understand.

     In regards to any dreams I've been having, truthfully I don't remember most of them. On a few occasions I've woken up in a cold sweat and felt generally sick to my stomache and I'm not sure why. I think this is mostly because of my lack of appetitite, and when I do decide to eat I don't exactly pick the best foods to munch on. Go figure, eating only spicy ramen for a living can do a number on your system.

     I mention I've had a successful attempt at "Astral Projection" in my video, shortly after a random YouTube glitch. It may have been a dream but I'm honestly not sure. I remember seeing my body sleeping in my bed quite vividly before I was cast into some sort of black void and immediately "waking up". After doing more research and talking to friends, I've been told this is perfectly normal. They say that the first few attempts at Astral Projection don't last very long, it takes time to develope. Aside from smoking killing me slowly, I've got all the time in the world.

     That's enough of my ranting. I've been hanging out with Sara recently, and we haven't gotten around to film that informational meditation video. She's been dealing with a lot on her own so I've opted not to bug her about my little hobby. Less that she has to worry about right? But I'll be updating regularly at least on my blog again, that's my plan.

     Take care everyone.

- The Acquitted

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Anyone else see this?

House Explosion, Two People Missing

    It's not that far away from where I'm at. That's absolutely nuts. You guys gotta check that out.

    Anyway. I'm trying to get ready to start my day really quickly. Got a lot of plans and don't really have time to sit down and follow through with today's dream journal. For once I got a decent night's sleep, which is definitely nice. No sleep walking that I'm aware of.

    I'm gonna record my dream journal later on, when I have a chance to sit down with my camera. I'll then compile some of them and post them on the new YouTube account that I have yet to make. I'm slacking, I know. So, forgive me everyone that I'm a busy bee today. Wish me luck, got a dinner date and I'm hoping it's going to be a good one.

    Take care everybody!

- The Acquitted

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Well today was unexpectedly rocky

    I'm not gonna lie right now guys. I'm absolutely exhausted today. I woke up sometime last night to find myself sitting at the bottom of my stairs, taking off my shoes and socks. I didn't fall asleep with them on obviously. I'm a little concerned that things I once had under control are starting to slip from my grasp. I'm trying not to get too personal here, but I've been battling manic depression, insomnia and sleep walking for as long as I can remember. I'm on a slew of different medications that are supposed to help with these conditions, and they seemed to be working.

    Judging from last night's events I believe I had another sleep walking episode. I haven't kept track of my cigarettes as well as I should have, but based on the way my mouth tasted when I "came to", I'd say I was outside smoking. My brain apparently told my body I needed nicotine but didn't bother to bring me to a full state of consciousness. I guess it's kinda funny when I put it like that.

    In any case, I suppose I should mention the dream I had last night. Really not much to say, once more this was not a Lucid Dream which is what my ultimate goal was. However I do remember very vividly having a running dream. It was short lived though. It was night time, I was running through some sort of forested area. I don't remember feeling a sense of fear, more a sense of urgency. I know for a fact I wasn't being chased by anyone or anything, but instead it felt like I was pursuing someone very intently. Not sure who, or what it was I was running after, but I woke up before I could find out.

    A friend suggested that maybe I send in my dreams to a self proclaimed "expert" on deciphering the meanings of dreams. I don't think I'm going to do that. Personally I'm the kinda person who believes that dreams are completely random and based on mood, and thought, rather than being some sort of psychic foreshadowing. I guess the option is still open if I get particularly bored, but if I do manage to induce Lucid Dreams more regularly that would prove to me that dreams hold no real significance other than giving your mind a chance to escape.

    Oh, on a completely different note; I will be setting up a YouTube channel and probably posting my dreams there as well. I've already got a couple recorded because quite frankly it's a lot easier to talk into a camera when you're groggy and tired than it is to sit in front of a bright computer monitor and compose your thoughts. This was a suggestion of my lady friend, and I think I'm gonna take it to heart. Maybe someone will be interested in my studies and methods that I'm trying.

    Still haven't gotten to the subject of Astral Projection yet, but my gal is actually going to help me with some meditation methods she's learned on her own. She thinks that this might be beneficial to my Astral Projection if I can induce some form of meditation while I'm asleep and completely propel my thoughts out of my physical body. I guess it's worth a shot right?

    Anyway, take care everyone and have a wonderful rest of your day.

- The Acquitted

Monday, March 7, 2011

Dream Journal

           Alright, so I tried my hand at a Lucid Dreaming technique last night with little success. This was due mainly to my lack of sleep as I had trouble finally falling asleep. I've got squirrels or something in the attic which kept scratching around and making some obnoxious noises. This coupled with an arguement I recently had with one of my friends was weighing heavily on my thoughts. Not a good night to start documenting this journey. Either way, I've been trying my hand at another technique and keeping a dream journal to help induce Lucid Dreaming. Got a lot written down in notebooks but only now am I making my recent dreams public.

    Sadly I don't remember a lot of what I dreamt last night. The key details that are less fuzzy seem to stand out the most prominently. I was taking a nice walk with my lady friend, in an area near my neighborhood that is essentially a bike path. We were walking beside a large creek (this area of town is named after the creek, silly right?) that was pretty relaxing with the rushing water over the rocks. We continued following the trail into a more heavily wooded area, keeping ourselves entertained through conversation. Apparently it was cold out because I remember handing her my jacket and walking without it at one point. The dream got sorta weird there at the end when she stopped and pointed at something. I don't remember what it was she was pointing at, that's about the time I woke up.

   I know. I'm sorry guys. Not the most eventful or creative dream but, again, I attribute this to several other factors going on at the time. Either way I wanted to keep you all updated in some form or another since I said I would.

   We're expecting some snow today, the weather is already changing and getting more bitter outside. Despite this though I've got some plans to see a friend and my gal later on. We're supposed to gather together and have some sorta movie fest for awhile. Not looking forward to the drive back to her place, as it's going to be snowing by then, but I think it's going to be worth it.

   Take care everyone and have a wonderful day!

- The Acquitted

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Astral Dreams

     Well, just started this blog to document my attempts and methods of both lucid dreaming and astral projection. I did a lost of research on it when I was younger and found the concepts to be very interesting. So now that I've got a bit more free time than usual I figure I'd not only give it a shot, but write down my experiences on the subject matter.

  For those who don't know, Lucid Dreaming is the sort of dream you have when you're absolutely aware of the dream you're in. This allows you to control the way the dream unfolds, set the pace, mood, pretty much anything you want. The sheer limitless potential at hand in a Lucid Dream is the closest experience humans will ever have to being God.

  Astral Projection is a little more complicated. It's certainly a lot harder to accomplish. The easiest way to describe Astral Projection is an out of body experience. It's what would happen if you were to leave your sleeping body behind and wander around, or even watch yourself sleep. This concept is more out there, but still worth looking into.

  A lot of people will experience Lucid Dreams throughout their lives without ever knowing what they truly are. On the other hand very few will just randomly have an out of body experience. As a result, what truly triggers astral projection is largely debated. However there are numerous ways to induce Lucid Dreams that sound plausible, so I'll be trying some of those out and letting people know how they work.

  Also just for the sheer enjoyment of writing a blog and getting the chance to jot down my thoughts. I might as well use this time to talk about myself, my day, all that jazz. The typical stuff you'd read on most blogs. I don't really know what I'm doing since this is my first real blog experience so be patient.

  Gonna get a jump start on my day, need to take a shower and maybe have some breakfast. Take care all, and have a wonderful day!

- The Acquitted