Thank you everyone, for helping me with that 23:4 puzzle. Things make a little more sense, but not by much. Perhaps this White Rabbit bastard isn't as much of an enemy as I thought. Maybe he's on my side in some sort of twisted way. Fucking hell, I can't believe I'm entertaining such an idea. The concept of some illusive, enigmatic, murderous psychopath being my ally. God help us when those kinds of horrible people are our friends.
Anyway, I gotta make this as quick as I can, I feel like I've just been given a lead and time may be an obstacle against me. I just recently saw the video White Rabbit posted, a lot of it seemed to be a bunch of garbled nonsense until I started noticing similarities between what was shown and my past. It's crazy, I know, but what about this entire situation isn't crazy? I've been laying low here at my own place, I haven't done any video updates because quite frankly I've been trying to draw as little attention to myself as possible.
When I re-watched the White Rabbit video, video 4of0.wmv to be exact, that first clip is exactly indentical to the high school I attended back in 2004. In fact, I dare say it IS the high school I attended. It's not just that, but for a split second we catch the backside of a figure wearing a black hat. I used to wear those exact same clothes when I was around 14-15, I think that's me. I was so excited when I had first got my camera that my friend and I filmed almost everything we did, we even went on to make a few short films that were terrible at best.
I've got dozens and dozens of cassettes here, there's more around this house. Everything is so spread out and messy that I almost don't even know where to begin looking. If I'm right then all the answers I'm looking for could very well be in something I filmed long ago. Furthermore, we even catch a glimpse of my best friend since childhood, a guy by the name of Brandon. He was saying something to the camera about not knowing what was going on, but he looked a lot younger then. It's possible all the clips in that video, or even ALL of White Rabbits videos have been from years ago.
I don't speak to Brandon very often, he went off to join the Navy, and we write or text each other from time to time. But he's always incredibly busy. I'll post a picture of him here at the end, it's a horrible cell phone quality picture, but it was back when he was excited about joining, so he took a picture of himself in his uniform at a motel.
That girl in the video, is similar and yet different from the one White Rabbit murdered outside of Gordon's. It's a haunting image, some sort of painful reminder that tugs on my heart strings but I can't figure out why. It's entirely possible this is the same woman, perhaps at that same young age. I lost contact with a LOT of my friends from High School, in fact I hardly talk to any of them. If that footage indeed came from my camera, it's possible she plays an important role in all this. But why the shot of Brandon? Maybe this presents more questions than answers after all.
I'm not sure what's going to happen after this post, it seems the more I make myself known the deeper into all this I get. I can't just sit by idly trying to defend myself from something that refuses to come to me anymore. Anyone who walks by with a hood drawn sends a sense of panic screaming across my body, which is hard because it's been quite rainy here the past week and anyone walking around has their hood up including myself. I'm growing increasingly paranoid for my well-being.
I'm trying to ignore two thoughts that linger in my mind. The ones that are by far the most pressing and causing the most distress for me. If all those videos are things I've filmed at an earlier age, how did White Rabbit get ahold of that footage? And... What really was that thing I saw in the woods, some sort of Demon, Satan? Or maybe it was Sin incarnate, punishment for something I've done. Good God what have I gotten myself into.
- The Acquitted